"I'm ready for you to get up now, Mommy."

No more sleepy kid. Fever is gone. Cough is still here. Whining is still here. Appetite isn't fully back. But one thing that is: refusal to rest.

I was tired. His snoring and coughing had me awake for a good long while between 3 and 5 a.m. So I tried the rest thing again. He wanted none of it. He left me alone for a while but was clear when my time was up.

I do not love being at someone else's beck and call.

I am hoping that if I have another baby that the patience and unconditional love gene will kick back into gear. Because as we are approaching age 4, I have a lot less patience and worry that this is what I'm conveying more than love these days.